Sobriety brings more new awareness and I’m devouring information about spiritual development. Some of it makes sense – some not so much. One persistent challenge I continue to face is the incessant noise in my head. The mental humming follows me like my shadow. It’s there waiting for me each morning when I wake up. I can’t find the off switch to the radio station that’s going on up here.
I don’t remember having this issue before I became an alcoholic.
I’ve been advised to learn to meditate and I’m working on figuring out a way to multi-task at it – like walking the dog while meditating. The problem here is that as soon as we set out, I forget. It’s always such a nice day. So – I’m not 100% sure this is doable, but I’m not giving up on the idea yet because sitting still and trying to quiet my mind in front of a candle for 20 minutes drives me nuts. It brings on something akin to a thought attack – like the climax of a fireworks display.
Something else I’ve been advised to do is focus on “ conditioning the mind to work in conscious cooperation with others in spirit.” And while I’m at this, keeping a calm solar plexus will enable me to move forward with fewer setbacks.
I’m really new to this kind of language – chakras, conscious cooperation, calming my solar plexus, … but my takeaway here is that I need to get used to the ideas of learning to relax and of working in a group – spiritually. Whatever that means and whatever it looks like. Not sure.
How will I learn where to find the group?
Will someone invite me in?
Do the others know?